One of my favorite movie quotes from one of my favorite movies:
So it’s not gonna be easy. It’s going to be really hard; we’re gonna have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that because…
Because in the end it will be worth it. Just like any hike, just like being a mom, just like losing weight. Good grief it’s hard but if you keep at it and do it the right way, it’s worth it. The view from the top of the mountain, watching your son graduate (not that I’ve experienced that yet), and fitting into that size you haven’t worn since high school – all worth it.
I have a normal routine and a friend came to visit Monday and I said “You can come but bring your gym clothes because Monday is spin with Mandy at 6:45.”
<Insert grumble here>
<insert excuses here>
“That’s what we do on Monday so if you want to see me, pack a bag, babe.”
So that’s what we did. We spun.
On the way there there was a lot of “I’m not going to be able to finish.” “I’m not going to be able to walk tomorrow.” Etc. And all that took me back to my first 5k with my dad and sister about two years ago (correct me if I’m wrong, Dad). It was at a Monastery and it was through the woods and I’m pretty sure it was cold and I was definitely not happy. I did it. I didn’t run the whole thing but I did it and I remember at the very end, my sister was waiting for me at the top of the hill. All I had to do was get to her and I was finished so I pushed hard at the very end – gave it my all – and when I got to her she said the only three words I didn’t want to hear:
WHAT?!?!? This isn’t the end????!!!! I’m completely out of juice. Done. Finished. No. I can’t go any further.
She wouldn’t let me quit there and I apparently did have the 500 steps left in me to get to the finish line. She held my arm and “ran” with me. I felt like I was going to throw up and die, but I didn’t do either. Such a drama queen. Three tiny miles. Sheesh!
But I remember and I pushed him because I knew he would be glad he did it just like I am every time he pushes me or I push myself. Every time I say no to the second roll when I really want to slather it in honey butter and dive in. Every time I say no to something that doesn’t align with one of my big picture goals that I have for my life. Every time I say yes to myself and no to someone else. It’s not always fun to disappoint other people but I can’t hinge my decisions on that anymore.
Push through the pain. The good stuff is just on the other side.