After trying every get-slim-quick scheme that there is and losing weight some of the time and putting it back on and then some every time (rinse and repeat), I have come to one conclusion: you have to get your mind right. It has to be for all the right reasons, and you have to listen to your body. But most importantly, you have to be grateful. Grateful for a body that carries you through the endless tasks of the day of a working mom, arms to pick up your 70lb child when he needs a hug, legs to move you through that step class that you know you are going to love when it’s over but good God you feel like you might have a heart attack in the middle of it and all the heart and soul to love every minute of your blessed life.
This one is a hard one for a perfectionist like me. One that I have to remind myself of often. I’ve always felt I could be better especially physically, but this in another life lesson that I’m teaching myself – balance and patience. Maybe you (meaning me) don’t need to consume 2000 calories of margaritas and chips and cheese dip every Friday night. Maybe you don’t need to attend EVERY function after work. Maybe you don’t need to spend $200 every time you walk into TJ Maxx. Maybe you don’t have to be perfect.
I started doing two things over the past year: reading a very inspirational blog and meditating. Now I don’t meditate enough or even often and frankly I’m not very good at it, but when I do, I love it. There’s a saying that those who don’t have time to sit still and reconnect, should be the first ones to do it. It’s true. I use the guided mediations that Deepak does on the Chopra Center site – the 21-day free ones. There’s always a great centering message that I can use throughout the day and it helps me start my day on the right foot.
The blog has been the most helpful, though, and I have to thank my friend Allison for introducing me to it. It has helped me to really just except myself as I am in this moment and to act with love of myself first and then love of others. It’s reminded me to be patient. That God has a plan for me and I must pay attention to the world around me and trust that he will take care of me.
I do not have all the answers. I’m learning about myself everyday. I’m learning to love myself just as I am. I doesn’t happen overnight so I’m learning to be patient too.