How it all started

I saw this picture:
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Yes. That’s me on the far left in the brown dress. I was borderline obese and not proud of myself. I drank and ate way too much.

Fast forward three years later and I’m much happier when I look in the mirror:
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Of course I feel better too but let’s be honest, at 32, I’m really excited about the looking better part.

I have been yo-yo dieting since I was 18 but I started gaining weight when my parents got divorced when I was 12.  I always had a boyfriend so it wasn’t unbearable but I was always the heavy one in the group.  I had to be in the middle of every group picture (you know what I’m talking about).  I was miserable inside.  Getting dressed sucked so I shopped all the time so I could at least be excited about wearing something new even if it was a size 14.  Looking at pictures of myself sucked so I avoided that at all cost.  I even went as far as calling an old friend and begging her to take down a photo she had posted of me on Facebook…okay maybe that happened more than once.  Like people couldn’t just see me in real life one day and see that I had swollen up to 188 lbs.  It wasn’t pretty.  Not even a little bit.  Of course my family and friends and then husband loved me and never really said anything.  Of course now I wish they had but would I have really listened?

So I had to do something, but it had to be different.  It couldn’t be a pill or a quick fix.  I had spent way too much money on all those things already, and I was 30.  It was time to change.  So I did.  Gradually.  I made myself a priority.  I made working out a priority.  I ate what I wanted but I ate less.  I turned down many happy hour invites so I could go to the gym (and that was unheard of from me).  My dad and sister started doing half marathons so I would piggy back and do a 5k at the same race (they were a huge inspiration for me).  It has taken me a little over two years but I have taken off over 30 pounds without the help of supplements or trainers or fad diets.  If I can do it, I know anyone can.  I have a 7 year old that I adore and am now a single mom so I have all the excuses on lock but I’m not using any of them.  I’m never going to be that heavy again.  I hope this blog and my readers help me do that but more than that, I hope to be able to help at least one person on the journey to finding his/herself.

Today marks the day of a new beginning and I’m happy (and slightly nervous) to share it here with you.

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